And then…
It’s a expression, its feeling, it’s the happiness, it’s the fear…..of the moment that follows And then… it was that moment of life time that I would never forget…it started with a kiss that wasn’t for me….she kissed the small girl standing on the pavement and waving to her she stepped on the road….i stood watching her with many things in my head. And then…
I true sense I shouldn’t have known her but may be I was destined to. Thursday morning I had to go to the broker to book my new house that I have already finalized. It was two storey house with a garden and small swimming pool. It had a high cost but with my high paid job I would have paid back the loan in less than five years. Five minutes before I had to go to the dealer my boss called me to his cabin. I felt something in my heart the very moment. I got into the cabin and in straight words he said “your subordinates do not like your working style, you put too much pressure on them. So change your working style”,AND THEN….. I don’t know what mood I was I said “sir, I guess I don’t want to continue with this, so I am resigning. My resignation letter would reach you, thank you”. .
After I came out of the office, I realized that I had no job but I didn’t regret the decision I could anyways get another job. But now I wanted to live life in a bit free style so I went to my dealer and instead of buying the luxuriant house I bought a house that was also a two storey house but was a century old house on not a too good street. There wasn’t any swimming pool nor the garden. I just made the decision randomly. I didn’t even saw the house except for a snap that the broker showed me.
The only condition was that I had to shift the next day but I had already left my older apartment and had nowhere to stay. I had made up my mind to stay in the hotel for the night but the broker made a call, spoke some convincing statements, even about my character, that I was respectable man and so. Finally he told me that I can move in this evening only.
I didn’t even knew who the previous owner was. I was in a very free mood bothered about nothing. I called the packers and the movers that I have hired to shift to new location in the evening. The packers said that the services are available in the day time only and if I want they can keep the goods for the night with themselves and will deliver in the morning. I even agreed to that.
The rest of the day I thought of devoting to myself. I went t watch a movie, treated myself with a good and lavish lunch. As I moved out of the restaurant the sky was covered with black clouds the winds became cold. So I moved to have a long walk. There was all the possibility of a harsh rain but the winds continued. It was just 4 pm. But seemed like its already 6 in the evening.
I walked down the street thinking about my life how it had been. Right after the college I was hired from then it had been four years now, I progressed a fast pace, so fast that I just forgot how to live a life. I had to enjoyment, no love, just work. So right then I started to make my priority list first place was to bring all my old unfulfilled hobbies, then to make arrangents for enjoying life and the list ended. Love wasn’t on my list because it wasn’t sold and I don’t know how to find it.
I had already walked for an hour. The wind was getting harder now and the small droplets from the sky began pouring. I called a cab and headed straight to the house I bought, although it was a bit early but I had no other options.
After traveling for half and hour the taxi stopped. I wiped my window glass to have clear look of the house. It was in more critical condition than it looked in the snap. I paid the taxi and walked upto the door and knocked. The rain hadn’t started heavily. Before the door could open the electricity went away and as the sky was totally black the visibility had reduced considerably.
Then the door opened, a female figure was standing in front of me, I couldn’t guess what age she was because the visibility was very poor. But she looked to be in good shape so I assumed her to be a young girl. Atleast that was what I wanted to believe. She asked, “who is it” after hearing her I realized that my assumption would be right. I gave her my introduction, reason and apologies for being early. She stood silent for a while and then said “where is your luggage”, I again explained her the whole thing.
She said that wasn’t feeling good about my shifting in today as she lived here alone. I again tried to convince her. With a little reluctance in her words she let me in. it was even more darker inside every thing seemed to be packed in boxes. I said “ when are you planning to leave” answered “tonight”, I didn’t expected that to happen . even though I haven’t seen her face yet but I wanted to talk. I had’t really talked to any body for the last four years where I could say it was just a talk, it was always a meeting or a client. She said again “but it seems the weather won’t let me leave tonight, so I guess we both are struck here for the night, but don’t take it for any other meaning as such.” I replied “ for sure” with an invisible smile and a thanks.
She guided me with the meager light that was coming through the window. Than we reached a little less congested spot. She said “ make your self comfortable with in this only every thing out here is packed. I sat on the foor with my back against a box and she sat on another box. We stayed silent for quiet a while. I kept on imagining how she would be and I don’t know what she was thinking.
Than she broke the silence “do you have any arrangement for the food, because I don’t”, I answered “the weather isn’t good enough” till then it started to rain heavily I continued “ but no problem we can order something, atleast some one in the city would be ready to deliver” . I took out my cellphone but the battery was already dead, I asked her “does she have a cellphone” she replied negative.
Then she said would you like to have coffee, because the only thing she can prepare. I said “sure”. She got up and vanished into some corner, I kept on waiting not knowing where to go. After a while she appeared slightly as the darkness had increased, she said “would you like to have your coffee here, I am going to the terrace” I agreed to move up, she asked me to somehow find my way towards her and any how I did, then we moved up on the terrace.
She handed me the cup and we were standing under a small shade. The coffee cup had a lid on with a small opening to drink from it. I asked her what is this for and she said “for having coffee in the rain” and she moved out in the rain. The terrace was large and had enough space to walk. I looked at her walking in the rain sipping her coffee. So free as I wanted to be. I waited for a while and then moved out in the rain and started walking beside her. AND THEN… she asked tell me about your self and we started talking. I don’t know when the coffe ended but the talks didn’t the rain stopped but we kept on strolling. It was nearly dawn when we came down. I was happy like anything with just one thing bothering me that couldn’t see her face till then. She moved into a room and closed it. I laid somewhere between the packed items.
I the morning I was woken up by her voice, she said “I am leaving for the movers agency and would see me later. I some how opened my eyes, the vision was still blurr, I was her figure moving out. I shouted “wait” but she had already exited the door. I jumped over the boxes just to have one glimpse of her face.
I came out of the door and there she was kissing a small girl, smiling, beautiful.. I just kept looking, my heart beat became faster. She waved her hand to the girl and stepped on the road without looking at the road. AND THEN…
I shouted, I moved with every muscle of mine….but it was too late….a car drove over her…and she lay in the pool of blood…. I couldn’t do any thing, I stood there stoned.
The next thing I did was pulled out the list I made last evening tore it and called my broker saying” I need to sell the house”
